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Monday 16 October, I am glad, I lost around 800g since two weeks and did not put it back. Hopefully I will loose another kg by next week.

It has been a really though week. Manue & Flo were away on holidays and I was working A LOT! 12 hours every day this week with the crazy italian coming on saturday! they achieved me! It's funny how strees I can get at work... Even on sunday when the party was all good, they left happy, I am thinking about it and have tears in my eye. Just thinking of how hard it is! I am not saving life or dealing with death only trying to make people having a great experience when they come to the restaurant. How crazy is that??? Food is my little place of heaven.. so yes I eat badly this week to cop with that stressful week. But I have done well! I am eating whole food. Veges, fruits, brown rice, no pasta less bread than before... I am proud of me. I also realised how much energy I am getting while eating better. I don't have this feeling of beeing heavy, tired after lunch or breakfast. I feel more dynamic and I enjoy more going to Lesmills. I even signed up for the 6 weeks before summer challenge where I need to go 18 times to the gym by december 3rd :-) Happy Me!!!

I feel significally better... I also last 3.5 weeks without drinking at all. I had a glass of wine on saturday after that crazy day, however yesterday having also two glasses I realised taht I don't really enjoyed the effect. So yeah... Less drinking and happy eating :-) I still eat chocolate but I cut on burgers and fatty food. 

I feel better, happier, discovered a new yoga club which is also doing meditation class... I enjoy my job, putting more stucture in place... I am finnaly heading in teh right direction! I need to keep up the great work!!

I am just back from 17km of cycling :-) yes, you read it right! AMAZING!

Of course the happy hormones are here and I feel good! I feel powerful and sexy :-) I had my appointement with my nutrisionist 10 days ago, she is lovely and basikly told me to eat more veges and fruits... which I do. I feel more energise, more motivated, it's a little bit crazy. Eating less bread for breakfast makes me wanting to do things. I don't have this letargic state. She also ask me to exercice three tmes a week. 

I believe I lost a tiny bit of weight, however, I decide to not focus on a number, I will oviously feel it in my jeans if I loose weight. I achieve so much this week, today... Going to the gym, even when I am tired, makes me feels more energic on the long run... 

In saying all of this, I eat a full Almighthy angus combo yesterday with chicken bites. I know, this is terrible, but then I skipped dinner as I was still full. I actually did not enjoyed my burger... Too much sauce and way too heavy. I used to eat that once a week right before sleeping, I actually wondered how I could sleep so full. Cleary I learned my lesson. So at the end it's a good thing :-)

Need to go... I ma going to cook for tonight... Brendon is coming for dinner, and healthy dinner is on the menu...Also, forget to mentionned I have not drunk a drop of alchool since 12 days... I wanna last until the 19th October for Brendon's birthday!!!

Namaste 

WHOOP WHOOP!!! I made it to! not last week but the week before I did three time some excercie during the week  :-) It;s hard but make me feel good. It just that with work last week it has been impossible to manage both... So of course, my excercice plan has been cut off in favor of work... 

On friday I'm having an appointement with a dietetician, i know i said it wasn't necessary for now... but I change my mind, isn't it what lady do? :-)

I am excited to see what they gonna tell me... I hate myself at the moment and more I hate it more I eat... Crazy mind that I have. I have absolutely no will power reagrding food. But it will change...

Actually one think that I managed to do is NO MORE BURGER! since 3 weekend I haven't touch it and to be honest passing by every night become a tiny little bit easier. I read a good book about how to "like beeing active" and the writter say that if you cannot have it in small quantities, it's better to say absolutely NO to it. I would not do it with bread or chocolate, but I believe it can work with junk food. I have been eating more at home lately and a bit more healthy too. 

Regarding the excerice, I am not going to excercie at the gym but more for walks and swimming pool which I love. This week I will add yoga session into my routine. Hopefully It'll work. 

Apparently diet is the key... 90% of the effort. So I am hanging there waiting for my appointement on Friday. 

Can't wait for Friday and to reflect about it! 

OMG!!!! pretty much one year that I did not write anything... I have been flat out! so much work and fighting trying to get my perfect life together. To be honest I wanted to resigned from my position maybe 4 times, wrote my resignation letter and eveytime my GM decided to not let me go... And he was right! I enjoy my job! FINALLY!!!!!

I have a good team, I believe I am a respected manager and i enjoy doing what I do. Brendon is still the man of my life, even though, let's be honest I have a tiny bit less butterflies in my stomach... Don't get me wrong, he is my rock, my everything but life and routine kill a relashionship... and it's very hard to keep the sparkle alive.

Regarding my work life balance, it's still doesn't happen and my work out is pretty much inexistant! I am very upset with myself! I am at home sick since almost a week comtemplating my disaster life... Welll disaster... maybe not all... but some of  the aspect I failled. Will I ever be happy.. I have so much contradiction! do I want a carrier, or a family life? I don't know and Brendon neither...

Since few months I try so hard working out, going to the gym, however, every excuses is the best excuse! WTF!!!!!! I have been reading everywhere that highlely proactive people make time to go the gym and time to relax, meditate etc... We all have the same time during the day. Well apparently, so why do I feel I have less?

I discovered that I loooovvvvveeeee murders series (yes i know, the bad acting one and even worst in French haha) and that take me so much time to watch it... I understand I need to relax after a long day at work... however, I need to integrated watching my series while excersising... Clever...

I also clearly know that I am addict to junk food! like burger (Thanks to Mc Do and Co.) but any kind of junk food can work... I am teh type of person eating what ever I can find in teh fridge at any time. I don't drink, don't smoke, but I eat badly, having flatmates does not help! And trust me it is a real addiction, i know people are smilling right now, but It is not funny! I may not die of a burger overdose, but it makes me very sad. 

The perfect version of me would be active, strong, healthy, sexy, lovely and suceeseful! How to achieve that? With Brendon, we empowering each other to be healthy and trying to excercie... Doesn't seems to work for me. I hide to eat and fell ashame of what I put in my body... What about THE "I am what I eat"? In this case I would be a big fat bag of greasy fries mixed with burgers and nutella!!! not very nice... I would prefer to be a ratatouille :-)

Time is missing, but apparently it is not an excuses... what could I do to change my mind set? to be a winner instead of feeling ashamed when I eat?????

I don't think I need to go see a dietetician yet as I know what to do... but I miss willpower when I am alone after work. Would living with Brendon help? I am not sure... 

3 times a week excercing doesn't sound impossible, but it is! I never achieved it :-( 2 would not be enough... hmmmmm just writting now empowers me but would that be enough?

What about trying going to the gym 3 times this coming week, not for anyone else than me. to remember that if I don't go, no one else will be disadvantage, only me. I only need to create habits to become stronger.

Let's try it! Be strong and beautifu because, JE SUIS MERVEUILLEUSE

My engagement this week is to re-write weekly, to be healthy, stong, succesful and fabulous, because I love life and I cannot waist it! 

Oh my god!!!!! Where have been the last 6 months???? October already and I haven't write for almost 6 months! 

Well, not much change really... I have been working, working and working, but not much working out unfortunately, and luckily I  am still with my boyfriend, which I believe will be the man of my life!!!! YEahh

Let's come back few months ago, I get my dream position at work, but in reality, it means.... Sheet loads of work... I am been flat out all year long! So of course, that's mean no holidays, crazy weekly hours and not much time for myself! 

I am struggling a lot to find my balance, I hardly go to yoga and gym, and do much less meditation and feel stress and anxious all the time.

Of course, I am not letting myself totally go, I am seeing a business coach since few weeks, who help me to balance my life, who makes me understand the importance of my boyfriend in my life, if I ever want a family,work is only work after all?! She helps me to be firmer with my staff, and to get more respect from them. To develop my leadership skills...

What I realised lately too, it's that I do not have a proper hobby, as I am not traveling anymore, and hardly have time to relax. 

Of course I still need to work out at the gym, go to yoga and eat healthy, but I feel it's way harder now than ever. 

Saying that, I spend the best time of my life with Brendon, I never felt like this before. I love him sooo much, he is kind, fun empowering, nice, sexy.... Etc... (The list is very long) 

so what should be on my list of things to improved: 

more work/life balance

go back to healthy eating

precious my time with my boyfriend 

feel powerful 

I need to write more often to be able to track my up and down... 

Hello,

i am quite lucky... Last week I have been promoted to Restaurant manager!!!!!!! YEAH, a big achievement of many years of working my ass off! It's funny how at work everyone realised how big it is for me, but my family and friends are " where you not already a manager?" Well yes, but now I AM THE BIG BOSS!!!!!!! ( only of the restaurant of course) Hahahahaha 

why I explained that is because that's also mean that my routine is changing.... I am working 65h/w and I am exhausted.... How can I intergrated my training into such a busy week already... And also find time for my boyfriend??? I know that my happiness is on a very fine line of me achieving my goal of a balanced life..... But man, it's hard! How can I fit my yoga classes into my week? It's really a struggle at the moment and I miss it soooooo much! 

I know that if I put my goals in writing it's easier for me to follow it... So training 3x weeks plus going for a run and 2 yoga class would be amazing.... I want to change.... Really!!!!! Those days I realised how positive thinking and energy is acting in my life... Also the power of getting out of your comfort zone... I am experiencing a life that 2 years ago I would never have imagined, this is crazy!!!! 

I am so thanksfull for what happened, the competition, working at hippo, Kathy who pushed me to be a better version of myself.... I am more careful now and it's been really positive. But I need to keep training and heating healthy if I wanna continue on this path.... Eating at work every night been a bit of a revelation.... The other day I realised how much I need veges and fruits into my diet now... I was so glad... ( if my mum would read that right now, she would have a heart attack 😜) 

So to finish.... A note to myself training and healthy eating is the key to success but also the key to happiness 😊

Time to go training now.... 

Ohlala!!!!! So long since I haven't write anything on my blog... it's because I have been disturb by a man... One month ago, I met Brendon. Wow, this is how I can describe him. That's what I told myself the first second I met him. 

But having a boyfriend shouldn't impact on my working out... Well, in reality yes. It's been a little bit harder for me to go to the gym and follow my healthy routine. As I do not see him during the week, I decide to try working out 5 days a week, Monday to Friday, and to be free on Saturday/Sunday...( I am working out anyway on thoses days haha) 

so let's get back on the purpose of this blog. I lost 2 kg since I started but I do not follow the programme properly lately... My sweat with kaylia app is fantastic. The meals are really easy to make and to take away at work and the gym is hard but definitely work. so far it's the best gym/ healthy programme I ever see. It's just my motivation which doesn't always follow. 

i also work very hard lately and I'm very stress due to work issue. And what do i do when I am stressed, I eat to feel better. I know silly me 😔

I took a picture this morning to check my progress and I feel it's a disaster... I really feel fat but i'm sure it will make me work harder next week... (Hopefully) 

so here are my goals for the few following weeks... Working out Monday to Friday and eating healthy as junk food doesn't make me feel happier... Of course keep going to my yoga class as I loooove it and the most important loving myself for who I am!!!!

Namaste

Let's be honest... Last week was very hard!!! 

I went for 4days in Napier for the ArtDeco Festival... I had so much fun but my eating was disasters! I was surround by tempting food and drinks and I dive into it like it was the first time! What's happened is that i flirted with a married guy!! (I know it's wrong) so flirting with him make me feel confident, good looking and powerful... So I gave up my diet and my sport! Damn it, my life will be easier without men ;-)

anyway... The worst part is when I came back to Wellington I felt ashame to have flirt with a married guy ( yeah right)  that I decide to eat more crap and to not go grocery shopping... ( maybe to punish myself) Instead I eat crappy comfortable food, which make me feel good for 5 minutes and then bad for 2 days!

My fitnext programme is weekly and start on Saturday.... Great! So today I am going for a run and then shopping for my healthy week! I know that I feel way better when I train and eat good food, however I cannot help myself....  when I feel lonely, the only think I believe make me feel better is too eat comfort food 😳 

At my yoga studio, my teacher always say to set a mental goal for our practice, well, here is my goal for this week, LET'S BE HEALTHY!!!! 

Namaste

Here we are!!! Me writing a blog... I never though I would do that one day

1st of all, I am French, but I have been living oversea for the last 10 years! So my English is not perfect but my French is worse!

I decide to write this blog, because, I have a cool life but  I am not feeling 100% happy.. I am 30 years old and single with no kids living on the other side of the world. You must be under your blanket reading my post, it is summer time  for me( I am outside seating in sun) hahaha! I miss my family and some of my dear friends but  I love NZ really much.

so let's come back to the purpose of this... 

i'm 1.58m and 65kg! I am not obese, but my weight definitly bothering me, and make me feel crap so I finally decide to take action... Of course I tried before, I am more active that I used to be but I have a long way to go to be were I want to be.

Last week I started the fitnext programme, in French ( just make my life easier) and honestly it's been a ruff week... As I will be honest on that blog... I eat a small pot of Nutella in one afternoon because I was feeling sad. I believe if I write a blog about how I really feel it will help me to finally achieve my goal.

today is Saturday, I made my weekly check with Fitnext and I start a new week. I truly hope that I will make it.

i won't write every day ( I am a social butterfly and a full time worker) but I will write often to record my progress and hopefully inspire some other people.

see you soon xx